Tuesday, October 30, 2007
life isnt any better after what happened especially when you're loving someone deeply....had no mood to study or do anything....bet you guys rarely see me this emo..sorry to you.
life's getting miserable and pointless....wherever i go there sure will be something to reminds you....went siglap....saw this bar called denise wine bar....and when i was in my friend's van 98.7 played all your favourite songs....when you're gone,apologize,empty....
im sorry but i cant help but feel this way and i dunno why im feeling this way cuz perhaps i never ever feel this way before....i know despite the way i am now, im totally pathetic and so loser....i cant even make you be by my side...and i really hope that you will come back to me...i'll be waiting...
sore throat aint getting any better and i really hope that you take care...rmb the time we took wood shot...the smile on your face.Priceless..but whatever it is i wont do anything silly cuz hopefully by the time i'll be drop dead on drinks.
went drinking with my friends ytd and i bought my german beer n some tiger and he got some hardcore liquor which has johnny walker black label,vodka....we agreed to get high cuz both of us got problems going thru out mind and we drank it neat....we kinda got too high and maybe paranoia. we did some stupid stuff like doing push ups to get the liquor in us pump up.my friend wanted to like cut himself so i was like you're crazy...why cut yourself up to bleed and suffer?the pain of suffering aint feel good.
cant imaging we both are suffering the agony we didnt expected...i always think that when you wants to get serious in a r/s thing wont go your way....sometimes i really hope that you'll be with me.but i cant really bother you cuz you need your time to do other stuffs too..im sorry that im causing you this kind of agony too and i think you'll recover much than i expected...i hope you understand that i didnt blog this intentionally to make you feel bad or something but i type whatever goes thru my mind right now...
Denise CJP....i love you and i love you still....i really adore you so much that the feeling of that is so special...im sorry for the loser state i am now and yeah...hopefully like what you've said may we get back together....i dont mind you clubbing and stuff cuz we're still young and we want to do stuff before we get old and regret..i really adore and appreciate those times we had though it was short and fast..it was breathtaking and sweet.i miss those times and i hope we will have those time in the future hopefully you wont have a change of heart by the time.whatever the sms i sent you,i meant in from my heart this i know.just let me know when you're really to start with me or you wan to end with me...i'll be waiting...even though ur answer is negative...i'll still be waiting to woo you back again..this i promise you.
when you walk away,i count the steps you take..do you see how much i need you right now?
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart is missing you, the face i came to know is also missing too.i never felt this way before, everything that i do reminds me of you.maybe we're trying too hard..maybe we're torn apart.maybe the timing is beating our heart..we're empty.you tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down,you tell me that you're sorry but i forgive you..cuz rmb you'll always be forgiven by me no matter what goes wrong cuz i really know how you're feeling
i take another chance,take another fall, take a shot for you cuz i need you like a heart needs a beat
i love my girl,
